I haven’t quite caught up with myself in order to have loads to write about here this week, but my first year at university is now finished!! I’m still not quite sure if it has hit me yet or not. But everything was handed in Friday morning, and after a quick two hour shift at work that afternoon that seemed to fly by, the summer has now begun!

At the moment, I’m just trying to catch up with myself. Friday saw a review going out and three on going stories being updated. Along with a couple of one-shots posted and the beginning of a story written and posted… I would say that was a successful start to the holidays? The writing continued yesterday as I finally managed to get a chapter of the Merlin AU finished. I’m not joking when I say this chapter was started weeks ago and I only just finished it yesterday.

So, is there a plan for the summer? Nope, not really, and it is glorious. For the next few weeks, I’m staying up here at uni in order to enjoy the freedom and just have the chance to relax without any time constraints whatsoever. Then it will be returning home and either looking for a summer job or pleading with my old job to take me back for the summer, will have to see which is the better alternative.

But right now, I have nothing to do other than relax. Needless to say, the plan is writing. I’m so far behind on writing things, it almost hurts the desperation to get writing again. The last couple of days have taken the edge of it slightly by actually getting things moving. Its seemed like a long time since I was last writing properly – even the Easter holidays I mainly spent working rather than writing and didn’t seem to be  able to get my creativeness to flow to well. I will be the first to admit that it is a horrible feeling.

Of course, I will also be trying to get some editing done. Had the rather amusing experience yesterday where I truly believed that I was in an editing mood, only to sit there listening to several songs on the list of the ones I have to make and not getting the feel for any of them. Hopefully today will be better, anxious to get back to it. Especially as within the last week, I managed to finally top my 1000th subscriber mark on youtube, which means so much to me I can’t express.

I think the main plan for today is finally getting the other websites caught up. The best one is going to be Livejournal, I’m so far behind on that that I think it is going to take most of the day to get everything up there. But at least I’ll feel accomplished and as if I’m truly ready for the summer if I can get all of that done.

Until next time…

May the Creativeness Flow.

I have to admit, I didn’t expect to be writing this today. It is the final run down to the end of the year and the deadline is just over a week away. But because I would really like next weekend to be the beginning of my holiday if I can, I am aiming to get everything handed in for the Friday rather than the following Tuesday. You can just imagine how this weekend has been and what I’ve spent the entire time doing? I’m still feeling rather proud that I’ve managed to leave the flat both today and yesterday, that is literally how exciting my week has been.

But I have reached a point this evening where I don’t think I can do much more tonight even if I wanted to. Everything that I was working on is as done as I can make it while just waiting to have queries/feedback from my tutors. This is the bit that I hate… I’ve spent the last two days solidly working and now am waiting on responses from other people before I can finally claim that things are done, it is one of the most annoying feelings in the world. Especially as for one module, I’m just waiting to hear back on the formatting aspect of it. I’m doing a creative degree, I hate that so many marks are given over to what size font you use and whether it has page numbers on it or not. And don’t even get me started on the referencing…

This is why I wasn’t sure if I was going to get this done today. Even if I had (as it now turns out I do) the time, I’m not really sure what there is to tell you. The only thing vaguely creative I have done is one drabble prompt, and that was literally written in a break from work today. If it wasn’t for that, I would have done absolutely nothing. It is a horrible feeling. I thought that ideas would be flying at me because of not having the time to write them, but strangely that has not been the case. Maybe it is because I spent all of yesterday working on my writing, but for an assignment. It’s not that I’ve stopped writing anything creative, it just has to meet certain criteria and I would be in rather a lot of trouble if I don’t get it done on time.

I feel horrid for just leaving people waiting for stuff. Through sheer chance and luck of getting everything done that I wanted to, I managed to get a couple of updates posted last night, but I’m so behind on everything. Just clinging onto the thought that hopefully by this time next week, the ideas will be flowing and the fingers flying as I try and get everything down again. Something tells me that this is going to feel like a long week. Thank you for putting up with my ramblings again!

Until next time…

May the Creativeness Flow.

Oh my goodness. Where do I even start? I think I have just had the best weekend of my life.  Nope, I didn’t get lots of writing done. I didn’t even get any productive work things done.

Instead, I had a day in London and went to see the Tempest, with one certain Colin Morgan in it. The show was absolutely incredible! Although I had looked up the plot line in the past and even think that I had read it, nothing prepared me for the comedy aspect of the show, several laugh out loud moments as the actors prance around the stage and engage the audience within the performance, especially when they leave the stage on more than one occasion.

The performances themselves were phenomenal. All of the actors seemed to just spark off from one another, and I particularly enjoyed the dynamics between Prospero and Ariel (Roger Allam and Colin Morgan). They seemed to be able to handle a switch between comedy and tension perfectly, and said so much just with a mere look at each other. The facial expressions I thought were done particularly well by Colin by the way he managed to give Ariel and almost childlike innocents about him, and the tone of voice could switch between whether he was pleading for his freedom with Prospero, or intimidating the newcomers to the island with eerie spirit tricks. Considering I am writing this knowing absolutely nothing about acting, to say that I was impressed was an understatement.

The thing I certainly never realised all of those years watching Merlin was just how agile Mr Morgan is. Throughout the whole performance, he was casually climbing up parts of the stage, swinging across monkey bars and just holding himself up with just one arm. Not to mention the graceful way he could just sit cross legged. Or even more impressive, the way he could just stand up again – I know from experience I just end up falling over if I try and do that.

It was a good reason to meet up with a very dear friend as well. We were there practically three hours early and ended up sitting down on the pavement outside for most of the time, getting rained upon. In our defence, we have a track record of getting lost in London so we didn’t dare venture away once we had found the Globe. It rained a few times during the show, and completely hailed in the interval, but it could have been a lot worse. We managed to get drowned heading back to the station, but once being home and warm, there was rather a funny side to it. If you’re going to get wet, may as well get soaked.

It does mean that writing wise, I still probably won’t get much done this week either because I now have to spend the next couple of weeks really focusing on getting work done for my deadlines, but not long to go!

Until next time…

May the Creativeness Flow.

Where on earth has this week gone? I’m so behind on everything that it is unreal. Okay, yes, I know where this week has gone – had a pretty special birthday this week so that has taken up a couple of days – the actual day and then I saw all of the family today, which means it has been pretty special. Especially as my mother and sister collaborated together and actually made me a Thunderbird One birthday cake. The ironic thing is that I joked about that with said sister a few months ago. I really should have known that she would go and take it as a challenge and actually do it!

But…I have to admit, birthday fun aside, this week has not been a good one. No kidding, I’ve barely even managed to write 1000 words on anything. I’ve managed to keep a video ticking over, but that is only because I’m addicted to that song right now so keep wanting to listen to it so have managed to force myself to keep putting clips to it every time I want to listen. I’ve tried twice to start my next thunderbird’s chapter, and neither one have I particularly liked. I think the second is going better than the first, but that still doesn’t mean that I like it.

For the first time in a long while, I’ve not managed to get any livejournal updates up, nor did I even got my weekly review done. So saying, I’ve got time that I didn’t expect to have on my hands right now so am planning on changing those facts right now. I just can’t believe that one week back at university and I’m this far behind – what does it say about the rest of the term?

To be honest, I’m not sure what the rest of the term is going to bring in terms of fan based things. This week alone I don’t feel like I have managed to get much work done even though I’m actually in a solid position because of the amount I got done over the Easter holidays. I’m one of those people that just worries about everything when I don’t feel like I’m making progress, even if I actually have plenty of time and got lots of things done.

I guess what I’m trying to say is don’t expect an awful lot of exciting news on here over the next few weeks or so. Although so saying, the weather has picked up, I’m trying to go on a really healthy spree and life is good even if the deadlines are looming. So maybe I’ll just ramble about flowers and rivers and pretty things like that… actually no, that really wouldn’t be fun for either of us. And right now, I feel like I’m rambling more than I have ever rambled on here, so I think this is my chance to runaway and try and get some updates up, don’t you?

Until next time…

May the Creativeness Flow.

There is something so nice about waking up to sunshine, I have to admit. Even if that also means waking up with a thumping sinus headache. Think it might be getting to hayfever time of year again, which is never a fun time for me. It doesn’t help that I’m allergic to the majority of hayfever tablets, so that really doesn’t help. It’s going to be a long and busy day for me today – back to uni I go. All packed and ready, just have to get the last few things sorted.

I can’t believe how fast this year has gone. In exactly one month’s time, I will have everything handed in and that will be it, my first year of uni done. It’s really bizarre thinking about it, simply because it has flown by and I’ve loved it. Never would have thought a year ago that this would be the case, and it just shows that you can get anything done if you want it. Quite looking forward to the deadline being over, I must admit. I’m really looking forward to just being able to write all day every day and do whatever I want rather than having to think about what work needs to be done.

It’s been a funny one, this holiday. Writing wise, I don’t feel like I’ve actually got much done. I’ve obviously got more done than I had been at uni, but I’ve really been struggling with things. I think it might be because I’m writing so many different things. At uni, I was getting all these ideas and because I didn’t have much writing time, I thought I would just roll with whatever wants to be written, even if it meant starting new things. Over the holidays, it’s been playing catch up to try and get some of those things moving properly. It is working, just don’t feel like I’ve got as much done as I’ve wanted.

Strangely enough, it is vidding that seems to have taken over for me at the moment. At the beginning of last term, I seemed to have really lost my muse for it and basically didn’t know what to make in the slightest. But I managed to get the spark back towards the end of term and now really feel like I’m making lots at the moment. At least one thing going up a week which is a great feeling, especially as I’m really pushing for the big one thousand on subscribers at the moment. It’s going to feel fantastic when I get there, as if all of this hard work over the last five years has been paying off. It probably helps that I’m really focusing on branching out what fandoms I’m making as well now that Merlin has finished – people don’t look things up in quite the same way when the show has ended.

Right, I guess I should get moving in order to be able to get back before the day is already gone!

Until next time…

May the Creativeness Flow.

I did not nearly forget to do this! Not at all…Okay, yes, I did. I swear I have absolutely no idea what day of the week it is! The weather has finally decided to perk up and there are actually signs of spring coming out. Week into April and we’re only now getting a hint that the bad weather is going to end. I thought that at the beginning of last week, but then we had a day of solid snow on Thursday, so you can just never tell. With the clocks changing last week as well means it is still lovely and light, so not only do I not know what day of the week it is, I also have no clue as to what time it is.

The other thing throwing me off is that I randomly did a load of updates on things on Wednesday of all days. As last weekend was so busy with family events and things like that keeping me occupied, I didn’t get the chance. So I put most of the updates out on Wednesday. So rather than it being a week since the last lot, it has only been a few days. Wow, I really don’t stand a chance of knowing what day it is, do I?

So what has been happening this week? I can’t believe it is now only a week until I go back. I’m really pleased with what I have managed to get done so far in regards to getting work done, but I know that I still have a lot to do. I can’t help it, I’m just so determined that I’m going to do well, I feel like I have to be working all the time, which is total nonsense, I know. I should be taking this time to rest for the big rush when I go back, but I’m really not.

In fact, I don’t feel like I have really got a lot done in regards to writing. I mean, I am roughly getting something out each day at the moment, but compared to what I know I can do over holidays, it doesn’t feel like anything. Now have some new stories on the go with being posted, however, and am trying to start planning my next long Merlin one. Not sure if I’m going to start it or not, it will depend whether the muse decides to grab me or not. I don’t mind hanging back and not starting anything new until after the deadline, but I’m also not going to deny the muse if it is giving me ideas.

Still managed to get a video done this week though. Two in fact. One was just a general Merlin one like normal, but the other was interesting. It was a real challenge to do, as I had to use what clips I had of one thing and basically make something really different with them. I’ve never done research for a 30 second video before, but this was great fun!

Until next time…

May the Creativeness Flow.

Happy Easter to one and all! And what do you know, the sun is actually shining! For anyone reading this in the UK, they’ll be aware that that has rarely been the case lately. In fact, just yesterday we had some horrendous hail storms – very pretty to look at from the safety of indoors and not having to go out, but definitely wouldn’t have wanted to be caught out in it. Off for a joint Easter/Birthday party in a little while, so hopefully it means that I can actually enjoy some of the sunshine.

One week at home down already, who would have thought it? I guess it has been pretty productive! Have managed to get a reasonable amount of work done which feels like a good start. Still have lots to do, but one screenplay has been successfully written. Well, I say that, I really just mean the first draft of it, but hey, it’s a start.

But the really exciting thing is, things are moving forward well with writing as well. A new Thunderbirds story is under way. My Merlin one that I’ve been writing has now been finished, even though I think it might have got a little bit on the confusing side. Means I can start to have a think of what to do next for that fandom, got a couple of ideas in mind.

I have also almost finished one of my much darker ones, which works out for perfect timing. I’ve got another one that I think I have written enough of to be able to post it now, so just means that I can finish one and then start the other one without a break or without having to overlap and get confused about what is being posted where.

I deliberately haven’t been doing any of the novel this week. Well, I haven’t been doing it as in I haven’t written a new chapter. I have, however, been trying to do a really tight edit on what I have got. I haven’t got very far with it, but hopefully tidying it all up a bit so that it can read a lot better in the future. Has been nice to be able to just remind myself of what was happening within the earlier chapters.

Plus another long video done this week. It might not have been the longest I’ve done, but it was certainly longer than the few I have been putting up recently and I had so much fun with it. When it works how you have it in your mind and you see it come out, I still get the complete buzz from doing it even though I have been doing it for five years now. I have come on a long way since then, although hoping to be able to improve a lot more in the next few years as it is something that I would love to be able to take further. To be able to do it as a job would be a dream come true.

Right now, I’m off to chase the sun and eat cake!

Until Next time…

May the Creativeness Flow.

I certainly love doing posts like this. No more being at uni and being woken up at some stupid time in the morning. No more having to row with flat mates over their complete lack of hygiene and completely inability to clean up after themselves. It is once again the holidays! Three weeks off to do…well, not quite anything I want because I want to try and get my work moving. When I get back, I have only a couple of weeks before so much stuff is due in, it’s going to be rather stressful. But if I can get some of that moving now, that will be good.

But the plan isn’t just to work. It’s also to write. The updates on here show that I’ve been writing numerous things over the last few weeks. If I can really get some of them moving, maybe even finished over the next few weeks, that is going to feel really good, especially as I’m not sure I’ll get anything done once I go back because of aforementioned deadline. So saying, I didn’t exactly get a lot done yesterday because of just trying to move back in.

Already this morning, however, I have managed to get half a chapter done. Hopefully if I can get a chapter or so done a day, that would be enough to just keep things moving. I’m still finding it easiest to write first thing in the morning, so I’ll just continue to get up early in order to get the writing done and hopefully then still have the rest of the day without feeling like I have to write.

I have a whole list of stories buzzing around in my head that need to be written, so it’s almost trying to work out where to start. I need to figure out an order and then just keep it rolling over. Who would have thought that writing could end up being so a technical process, that you have to work out where and when to write. Although my writing style is definitely branching out! I was randomly writing poetry last night, despite the fact that a few months ago I declared that I hated it. Guess when you move on from school and start looking at things differently, it really changes things.

I’ve managed to do a little more crossposting this week as well, which feels nice because I hadn’t done any for absolutely ages. It doesn’t take long to put the link up, it’s just remembering to do it. Hopefully I’ll get a little more of that done this week as well. Of course, I’m still going to be trying to vid as well.

It feels like today is taking the deep breath. Everything is getting ready to just go, and I can’t wait to see what the result is going to be if I can get done some of the things that I want to. It will be nice to feel on top of things again.

Until next time…

May the Creativeness Flow.

Good morning, world! Unlike the last couple of weeks, I actually have lots of positive things to be saying this time, yay! To start with, I survived my first assessed presentation this week! I think I redefinied knees knocking together, I was shaking so much! I had to go first, and although I must have looked terrified at that, I think it helped. I wouldn’t have listened to a word of other people’s otherwise, I would have been too utterly terrified about my own. I’m not the most confident of people, so having to do something like that is nerve wracking for me. But my tutor seemed to like it, so I guess that is all that counts.

But better news is – writing is back on track! I’ve really managed to get things moving this week. Got another chapter of the Lost Warlock done, which I was really pleased about considering I had posted a couple of chapters without getting anything written, so at least I know I haven’t frozen up on that one. My next AU, Flight of Freedom, is also nearly ready to be posted. I thought I would get it to ten chapters before posting so I’m covering myself, and managed to finish the ninth this week. I have also started on another AU that involves more of a reincarnation theme than I have ever done before, but now have two chapters of that written so guess that will just be a see where it takes me job. I don’t think it will be as long.

It’s still a struggle to get the crossover written I must admit. I thought because I knew both worlds so well, colliding them would be easy. Unfortunately I was wrong. But the good news is that I have finally started my next Thunderbird story, after having ages of not writing anything to do with them. It should be a lot more light-hearted than the previous few that I’ve posted so hopefully should just be great fun.

Things are also back on track with the original piece after missing a week last week. The next chapter is out, I just have to check it over later today before I can think of moving on. I’ve put my little white board back into use in order to try and plan out the chapters slightly so I know what I need to include in the next chapter when I start writing. Problem is knowing what I want to include, but it’s good fun for jotting ideas down.

And for the third week on a row, I have managed to get a video finished that I’m just about to post now. So although I need to get quite a lot of work done tonight, I’m feeling rather satisfied about what this week has brought in regards to getting things done. Quite glad to feel like it is back in my control. Problem with writing so many things, a bad week and you are behind on absolutely everything.

Until next time…

May the Creativeness Flow.

I seem to have finally calmed down from the giggles enough to actually write this. What can I say, I’ve spent the day doing a mixture of work and vidding. In fact, if it wasn’t for getting that video done today, I really wouldn’t have anything to say here whatsoever.

It has been a hell of a week. Remember how I said last week that I wasn’t feeling too great? There was a reason for that – I ended up with full on flu that basically meant I’ve spent most of the week in bed. I have got practically no writing done at all, not even on my original pieces which is the first time since being back at uni that has happened. Need to make sure that I have a catch up this week because it is not a nice feeling to know that I am so far behind on it.

I’ve also managed to only get the smallest amount of fanfiction done. I don’t think I’ve done so little writing for ages now, and I’m just hoping that next week will involve some catching up. I don’t know, I guess I just feel guilty when I don’t get anything done because I know that I have people following me and waiting for updates, and I’m not giving them that and it feels horrid.

On the plus side, I did manage to get two videos done again, so at least something is moving even if it isn’t everything that I want it to be. I guess I’ll just have to wait until the holidays before I get the chance to have a real catch up on everything.

I might have been ill this week, but I’ve also been in a really strange mood. I would love to somehow increase the things that I am writing online in order to be able to get a bit more of a following on different things. I feel like I’ve stretched myself too thin over all of these websites, and can’t get original content up on them as was my original plan was. I guess because I have all this course work to do and everything like that, I just wish that I could take this further.

What do people think would be a good thing to get out a bit more? That’s exactly where my problem lies – I post these ramblings once a week and occasionally manage to get out a review or two during the week, but what else have I actually got that people would want to read? Oh well, guess it is just going to be one of those things that I’ll have to keep working at.

What can I say, it has been a hard and frustrating week with very little sleep and feeling like I’m not getting anywhere with anything right now. And I currently have another headache, so I’m just going to stop everything right there and go and sleep while I can. Well, with the hope that I can.

Until next time…

May the Creativeness Flow.